Panic

Wed, 24 May 2006 12:52:51 GMT

I am so happy today! This marks the end of my summer classes. It's over!

Now what? Oh yeah, I'll be sleeping all day tomorrow since I didn't have enough sleep for the past weeks. Now that the classes are all over, I'll can go back to being a lazy ass.

Things to do for my two-week vacation:
1. Sleep for 15 hours a day.
2. Sit in front my computer.
3. Read more and more fanfics
4. Start working on the 8th chapter of my fanfic (maybe)
5. Update this journal regularly
6. Eat and eat until my stomach won't take in any food (gluttony)
7. Watch anime all day and night.
8. And many many many more!

Agenda? Nah...that's just a habit for me. That's the real me anyway. I am a pig!

I want to feel all the freedom in this world. This is the only time I can be me. With no one looking at me and asking me why I act in such a way that is not like me at all. But what they do not know is...what they see outside is not the real me after all.

No more people who would hinder me from being the real me... Thank goodness.

So?

Let's get it on!

Mon, 22 May 2006 05:09:28 GMT

And again, I am at school. My computer won't work so I'll just make an update using our internet laboratory at school.

Nothing to know about me today...

2 days more and the summer class is totally over. And I'll be partying all week long!

And maybe I'll make the next chapter of my NejiSaku fic. However, I'm getting sick of it. My mind is focusing on another anime so I get stuck with the Naruto fic I am currently working on.

Like I said before, I am so into SetoAnzu fic right now. What can I do?

Oh, well.

Ne, Yuki! I know you'll be out of the country so I just wish you'll be safe. Anyway, bring me home a rich and handsome boy okay! Just joking....

Anyway...I hope everything would stop and I'll be the one to start it all over again.

Wed, 17 May 2006 07:39:34 GMT

I am at school right now. I was here at school at around 8:00 in the morning and I am so tired now. Well, I am with a friend now...I kind of persuade her into going to the internet laboratory. And I am so persistent that I was able to drag her into this place. I still have 7 hours and 26 minutes left...

Umm...I still can't think of a good plot for my story. One thing is for sure, it's characters are the following: a girl and a young businessman...

Good? Nah! How can I write a story without a plot, anyway?

Why is it the girls with pretty faces gets more attention? Can somebody answer that? Why is that you can't get the boy you like because he likes somebody else and that somebody else is way prettier than you are...

It's not my problem anyway! It's somebody's...let's just say...that person is my friend...she's having a problem right now...about it!

Too bad?

Yeah...

I want more SetoAnzu fics...I hope someone would write a really great one...Me? Write? No...I am not that acquainted with their personality...

Loving Genshi even more... a fic by Leafygirl!

That's it for now...

I am starting to hate Statistics with all those hypothesis testing....

Sat, 13 May 2006 13:17:44 GMT

Michiko-chan! I already posted my research at my previous update..so...

This day is so gloomy. It's been raining the whole day. It was not really strong but...this kind of whole-day-raining isn't the best weather either.

Oh...How I want to watch the next episodes of Gakuen Alice! I love it and I'm loving it even more...

A week and two days more and I am out of shcool again...but not for long. The summer class is almost over and I can't wait. But I hate the coming semester. I will have Anatomy/Physiology! And there are feedbacks that many failed the subject...I am so scared!

But I'll try my best. Because if I didn't, I'd truly fail and that won't be nice. Right?

So...Oh and I can't update my NejiSaku fic, The Shattered Pieces, because of all the school works. That will be my first priority after my summer classes end.

Yes...I will definitely do that.

For a sneek preview...

“When are you going to fulfill your purpose, Sakura?” his deep voice found its way to Sakura’s ears.

->->->

“Sakura,” he said again, but with an increase in the volume of his voice.

“Let’s talk about this some other time. I need some sleep, if you would mind.” Sakura said, slightly raising her tone.

Sasuke scowled a bit but he wouldn’t let that pass so quickly. No one would dare treat him that way. He can’t be kept waiting. She won’t make him wait.

“Let’s talk now. The night is long, Sakura.” The hasty Uchiha stated with all the power he could muster from the nightlong tension between them.

The pink-haired woman opened her eyes slightly and she gave a deep sigh.

Why was he so persistent?
“When are you going to give me an heir, Sakura?” the Sharingan-user asked and

->->->

I really want more inspiration now that my love for the NejiSaku pairing is being overshadowed by SetoTea(Azureshipping) pairing...

I want inspirations....

Fri, 12 May 2006 15:30:42 GMT

Hey! Michiko! How are we going to send it to Wiam. Your research is so long. Are we going to edit it or we'll just send it to her just how the laws (republic act, department order...) were stated. And we'll just put the keywords for the PPT presentation?

Here are the laws that I have researched anyway.

Department Order No. 39-B, Series of 1992 (DOH)

Date: 1992
Source: Population Policy Manual, Volume 3
Subject: Management of Family Planning Program
To streamline and make more responsive the National Family Planning Program led by the Department of Health, the overall management of the national program shall be undertaken by the Secretary of Health and by the Undersecretary of Public Health Services.

As such, the Undersecretary of Public Health Services shall manage the day-to-day concerns of the Program through the Philippine FP Program's Technical Secretariat.

A staff to the Secretary of Health, the Technical Secretariat shall be supervised by the Undersecretary for Public Health Services.

Board Resolution No. 02, Series of 1993

Date: 1993
Source: Population Policy Manual, Volume No. 3
Subject: Operational Guidelines for a Decentralized Implementation of the Population Program
The Local Government Units shall be the planning, coordinating and implementing agency of the population program at the local level, consistent with the national population policy and programs. As such, they shall exercise the following roles:
1. Undertake population and family planning program and projects within the context of promoting family welfare, economic growth and sustainable development;
2. Strengthen and initiate the establishment of local population offices; and
3. Identify, generate and allocate resources for the local population program.
The Provincial/City/Municipal Population Offices (P/C/MPOs) maintained under the Local Government Code shall serve as the technical and implementing arm of the Local Government Units for population and shall cause the creation of population offices or shall identify appropriate offices to perform the following functions:
1. Ensure the integration of population dimensions in the development policies, plans and programs of various development sectors;
2. Develop a comprehensive Program Plan consistent with the National Population Program Plan and Local Development Plan in close coordination with GOs, NGOs and other agencies involved in the Population Program;
3. Recommend measures and policies to ensure the delivery of basic services and provision of adequate facilities pertaining to the implementation of the Population Program;
4. Implement population program and projects within the context of promoting family planning, welfare, economic growth and sustainable development; and
5. Submit periodic reports to the governor/mayor and other concerned agencies.

Department Circular No. 16

Date: January 15, 1970
Source: Population Policy Manual Volume II
Subject: Department of Health's National Comprehensive Maternal and Child Health Family Planning Program
Since it is the right of every parent to have children by choice, not by chance, community health services to be truly responsible to the needs must provide Family Planning Services when sought for, to promote maternal health through planned pregnancies and spacing of child births by ensuring small families so that children are wanted and can be cared for adequately for the enrichment of human life. The Department of Health, in line with the pronounced policy of His Excellency, the President of the Philippines, and the Department's National Program on Family Planning, enjoined all concerned to integrate Family Planning activities in their respective services in accordance with the following guides:
1. The Project Office of the Comprehensive MCH-Family Planning Program at the National Level shall be responsible for the overall planning, administration, coordination and evaluation of the MCH-Family Planning Program (in coordination with other agencies and organizations engaged in Family Planning activities).
2. The Regional Health Directors and their staff shall be responsible for the proper planning, integration of Family Planning activities in the health services in their respective regions.
3. Provincial and City Health Officers shall be responsible for the proper planning, integration and evaluation of the family planning services in their respective provinces and cities.
4. The local health entities (RHUs, Government Hospitals, City Health Centers, Puericulture Centers and others) shall provide such services as:
a. Education and Motivation.
b. Scheduling a one day a week for family planning services to start with .
c. Follow-up and maintenance of acceptors.
d. Proper recording and reporting.
e. Evaluation of the program.
5. The implementation of the above-mentioned services shall not in any way disrupt or neglect other health activities being undertaken by the corresponding entities.
All heads of Offices are enjoined to utilize personnel under their respective offices who have already trained on Family Planning in the organization of this new service with their available resources and means. They are expected to establish good and effective coordination and liaison with already existing private and government Family Planning agencies and clinics.

Training in family planning of other health personnel shall be given priority to carry out effectively this program.

Memorandum Circular No. 39 (DOH)

Date: 1979
Source: Population Policy Manual Volume II
Subject: Use of the Facilities of the Hospitals and the Rural Health/Family Planning Centers under this Ministry by the Itinerant Sterilization Teams of other Agencies Participating in the National Family Planning Program
The use of the facilities of hospitals and Rural Health and Family Planning Centers under this Ministry by the Itinerant Sterilization Teams of agencies participating in the national family planning program shall be governed by the following conditions:
1. That prior consent of the Chief of Hospital or the Municipal Health Officer or Rural Health Physician, as the case may be, and approval by the Regional Health Director concerned are secured;
2. That the existing hospital or center of the Hospital or center facilities are adequate to cope with the additional patient load;
3. That there is no available physician in the hospital or in the center/clinic trained in this particular type or specialty;
4. That the hospital is non-subsidized;
5. That it is the responsibility of the Itinerant Sterilization Teams to make regular check-up or follow-up of cases handled by them in said hospitals or family planning centers;
6. That while such cases are credited as part of the performance of the (IS) Team involved, the hospitals or clinics concerned are nevertheless called upon to incorporate such activities, in separate item, in their respective monthly narrative and statistical reports; and
7. That other conditions or terms, which the hospital or the center/clinic concerned may deem wise to impose is in consonance with the guidelines specified in Dept. Cir. No. 206, s. 1976
Presidential Decree No. 1204

Date: September 29, 1997
Source: Malacanang
Subject: Amending Certain Section of Presidential Decree No. 79, As Amended, Otherwise Known as the Revised Population Act of the Philippines

Whereas, the population program constitutes a program for family planning, health and welfare;

Whereas, there exists a necessity for the active participation of the Secretaries of the Department of Interior and Local Government and Department of Labor to represent the local government and labor sector, respectively, in the formulation and implementation of policies of the national family planning, health and welfare programs.

Section 5. Duties and Functions of POPCOM.
To employ or authorize the employment by participating agencies in the national family planning, health and welfare program of physicians, nurses and midwives and other persons to provide, dispense and administer all acceptable methods of contraception to all citizens of the Philippines desirous of spacing, limiting, or preventing pregnancies. Provided, that the above-mentioned persons, except physicians, for the purpose of contraception, have been trained and duly certified by POPCOM.

Presidential Decree No. 79, as amended revising the Population Act of Nineteen Hundred and Seventy-One

(Population Act)

Date: December 8, 1972
Source: Population Policy Manual Vol. No. 3
Subject: Population Act

PRESIDENTIAL DECREE NO. 79, AS AMENDED
REVISING THE POPULATION ACT OF NINETEEN HUNDRED AND SEVENTY-ONE

Section 1. This Decree shall be known as the Revised Population Act of the Philippines.

Section 2. Declaration of Policy. The Government of the Philippines hereby declares that for the purpose of furthering the national development, increasing the share of each Filipino in the fruits of economic progress and meeting the grave social and economic challenge of high rate of population growth, a national program of family planning involving both public and private sectors which respect the religious beliefs and values of the individuals involved shall be undertaken.

Section 3. Commission on Population. There is hereby created an agency attached to the National Economic and Development Authority, a Commission on Population, hereinafter referred to as POPCOM, to carry out the purposes and objectives of this Decree and in order to facilitate coordination of policies and programs relative to population.

Presidential Decree No. 79, as amended revising the Population Act of Nineteen Hundred and Seventy One

(Creation of the Commission on Population, Purposes/Objectives, Duties and Functions)

Date: December 8, 1972
Source: Population Policy Manual Vol. No. 3
Subject: Creation of the Commission on Population, Purposes/Objectives, Duties and Functions

Section 4. Purposes and Objectives. The POPCOM shall have the following purposes and objectives:
a. To formulate and adopt coherent, integrated and comprehensive long-term plans, programs and recommendations on population as it relates to economic and social development consistent with and implementing the population policy which shall be submitted to and approved by the President;
b. To make comprehensive studies of demographic data and expected demographic trends and propose policies that affect specific and quantitative population goals;
c. To organize and implement programs that will promote a broad understanding of the adverse effects on family life and national welfare of unlimited population growth;
d. To propose policies and programs that will guide and regulate labor force participation, internal migration and spatial distribution of population consistent with national development;
e. To make family planning a part of a broad educational program;
f. Family Planning Service, which shall formulate plans, policies, programs, standards and techniques relative to family planning in the context of health and family welfare; provide consultative, training and advisory services to implementing agencies; and conduct studies and research related to family planning;
g. To establish and maintain contact with international public and private organizations concerned with population problems;
h. To provide family planning services as a part of overall health care; and
i. To make available all acceptable methods of contraception, except abortion, to all Filipino citizen desirous of spacing, limiting or preventing pregnancies.
Section 5. Duties and Functions of the POPCOM. The POPCOM shall have the following duties and powers:
a. To employ or authorize the employment by participating agencies in the national family planning, health and welfare program of physicians, nurses, and midwives and other persons to provide, dispense and administer all acceptable methods of contraception to all citizens of the Philippines, desirous of spacing, limiting, or preventing pregnancies: Provided, that, the above mentioned persons except physicians for the purpose of contraception, have been trained and duly certified by the POPCOM;
b. To undertake such action projects as may be necessary to promote the attainment of this Decree and to enter, in behalf of the Republic of the Philippines, into such contracts, agreements or arrangements with the government or private agencies as will be necessary, contributory or desirable in the implementing thereof;
c. To undertake, promote and publish information, studies and investigations on Philippine populations in all its aspects;
d. To utilize clinics, pharmacies as well as other commercial channels of distribution of family planning information and contraceptives; and
e. To call upon and utilize any department, bureau, office agency or instrumentality of the Government for such assistance as it may require in the performance of its functions.
Section 6. Board of Commissioners. All the functions and powers of the Population Commission shall be vested in and exercised by a Board of Commissioners, hereinafter referred to as the Board, composed of eleven (11) members from the government and three (3) members as representatives of the private sector, as follows:
The Secretary of Social Welfare and Development
The Director-General of the National Economic and Development Authority
The Secretary of Health
The Secretary of Local Government
The Secretary of Labor and Employment
The Secretary of Agriculture
The Secretary of Agrarian Reform
The Secretary of Trade and Industry
The Secretary of Public Works and Highways
The Secretary of Education, Culture and Sports
The Director of the University of the Philippines Population Institute
Three Private Sector Representatives who shall be appointed by and serve at the pleasure of the President of the Philippines.

The Board shall elect the Chairman from among its members.

Section 7. Powers and Duties of the Board. The Board shall have the following powers and duties:
a. To adopt and prescribe policies, rules, regulations and procedures for the government of the POPCOM and to modify, amend or repeal the same;
b. To receive, evaluate, modify and approve project proposals on population matters from whatever source and to coordinate and evaluate their implementation in accordance with the approved plans and programs;
c. To approve the annual and or supplemental budget of POPCOM as maybe submitted to it by the Executive Director from time to time; and
d. To perform such other duties as maybe assigned to it by the President of the Philippines.
Section 8. The Chairman. The Chairman of the Board of the Population Commission shall have the following powers and duties:
a. To call and preside over the meeting of the Board;
b. To review, and with the concurrence of the Board, authorize major policies and programs as a whole;
c. To appoint, with the approval of the Board, the Executive Director and such number of Deputy Executive Directors and Regional Directors as the exigencies of the service may require and recommend to the Board their respective compensation and the suspension and removal of said officials for cause;
d. To submit to the President an annual report and such periodic-reports as may be necessary on the accomplishments and program of the POPCOM;
e. To accept, on behalf of the POPCOM, gifts, grants, or donations and administer, obligate and disburse the same in accordance with the provisions of this Decree;
f. To constitute committees consisting of members of the Board of such other experts and consultants from both the private and public sectors as are deemed necessary to conduct studies for the POPCOM or to assist in the discharge of its functions and, subject to the approval of the Board, authorize the payment of honoraria or additional compensation and commutable travelling allowances for services rendered, except to the members of the Board;
g. To delegate to the Executive Director, subject to the approval of the Board, any of the powers vested in him as may be necessary in the performance of functions; and
h. To perform such other duties as may be assigned to him by the Board from time to time.
Section 9. Meetings. The Board shall meet at least once every four months or oftener at the call of the Chairman. Eight (8) members of the Board shall constitute a quorum and no action shall be considered as a decision of the Board unless it carries the affirmative vote of at least (8) members present and voting. The members of the Board who are government officials shall serve without additional compensation.

Section 10. Executive Director, Powers and Duties. The management of the POPCOM shall be vested in an Executive Director, to be appointed by the Chairman, subject to the approval of the Board. The Executive Director shall have the following powers, duties and responsibilities:
a. To direct and manage, as Chief Executive Officer, the affairs of the POPCOM, in accordance with policies enunciated by the Board;
b. To sit in all meetings of the Board and participate in its deliberation without the right to vote; to recommend and, upon approval by the Board, establish and maintain an organization structure with specific functions and responsibilities for each operating unit;
c. In consultation with the Chairman and with the approval of the Board, to appoint and fix the number of such officials below the deputy executive director and employees of the POPCOM as may be necessary for the proper discharge of its functions and responsibilities and, to remove, suspend and otherwise discipline, for just cause, any subordinate personnel thereof;
d. To disburse, administer and obligate appropriations of the POPCOM, subject to the approval of the Board;
e. To submit annual and/or such supplemental budget estimates to the Board of Commissioners, through the Chairman;
f. To recommend, for approval of the Board, policies, programs and project proposals on population matters from whatever source and to submit recommendations for the effective coordination and implementation of approved programs and projects; and
g. To perform such other duties as may be assigned to him by the Board and the Chairman from time to time.
Section 11. Personnel. The POPCOM shall have such personnel as may be necessary for the performance of its basic functions and such other personnel as may be assigned or detailed from other agencies of the Government. All positions, except technical and professional staff and such other positions as the Board may declare to be highly technical, policy determining or primarily confidential, shall be subject to Civil Service rules and regulations and coverage of the plans of the Wage and Position Classification Office. Provided, that, all personnel shall be entitled to the benefits and privileges normally accorded to government employees, such as retirement, GSIS, Insurance, leave and similar matters. Provided, further, that in the appointment and promotion of employees, merit and efficiency shall serve as basis, and no political test or qualification shall be prescribed and the POPCOM shall be the final authority on appeals on personnel matters concerning its professional and technical personnel.

Section 12. Donations. The POPCOM shall be authorized to receive grants, donations or gifts, in whatever form and from whatever source. Provided, that, said grants, gifts, or donations shall be administered, obligated and disbursed in accordance with the terms thereof, or in the absence of such terms, in such manner as majority of the Board may in its discretion determine. Provided, finally, that, said grants, gifts, donations shall be subject only to such limitations as the grantor, giver or donor may impose as accepted by the POPCOM.

Section 13. Appropriations. The sum of fifteen million pesos is hereby appropriated annually out of any funds in the National Treasury not otherwise appropriated, as operating funds of the POPCOM starting in the fiscal year nineteen hundred and seventy four; Provided, that, out of this sum shall be disbursed the equivalent of the amount of Three Hundred Fifty Thousand Dollars as annual contribution of the Republic of the Philippines to the United Nations Fund for Population Activities; Provided, further, that, at least seventy-percent of said amount of $350,000 shall be used annually to finance population projects in the Philippines pursuant to this Act which are approved by the United Nations Funds for Population Activities. Provided, finally, that, said amount may be increased or decreased in the succeeding years by POPCOM in accordance with its financial position. This appropriations shall hereafter be included in the annual General Appropriation Act.

Section 14. Repeal. All laws, orders, issuances, rules and regulations or parts thereof inconsistent with this Executive Order are hereby repealed or modified accordingly.

Section 15. Separability. If for any reason, any part of this Act is declared unconstitutional or invalid, no other provision of this Act shall be affected thereby.

Section 16. Effectively. This Decree shall take effect immediately

Thu, 11 May 2006 00:47:52 GMT

I arrived early at school so I decided to use the internet and update this journal. I have been very busy for the past three days. Long tests and midterm exams day after day after day...It's so tiring. There are times that I feel lazy to study. Yesterday, when we had our midterm exam at History, I wasn't really prepared. It's actually the first time that I come to school unprepared. However, I am sure I won't fail in that exam. It's just a feeling...I hope it's true.

I am feeling lonely like ever. Yes. Maybe it's because of stress. It's been days since the last I was able to relax. I don't have enough sleep anymore. I come home at about 8:00 in the evening and there's just little time for me to even relax. I eat my dinner and then I study. And the usual time of my sleep would be 3:00 in the morning and again wake up at around 9:00. Not plently of sleep.

I swear! After this summer classes, I am really going to get a whole day of sleep! I hope...

I want to read more fanfic but this place won't allow me to. My studies won't allow me as well. Studies comes first, anyway.

Oh, I love this fic by Leafygirl...it was Loophole and now Genshi! I can't wait for the next chapter of Genshi!

That's all I can say for now!

Oh yes. I hope I would see Yuki at school again. But for some reasons like our schedule, it's impossible right now.

I hope I'll survive. 2 weeks more...

Sun, 07 May 2006 14:43:10 GMT

I was kind of meditating a while ago and words popped into my mind. Then I decided to place them here...

If only

I could have been a friend
I could have made you smile during those bad times
I could have watched over you when you have those nightmare-filled sleep
I could have been there to celebrate with you on your success
I could have comforted you when something turned you down
I could have been there when someone broke your heart
I could have listened when nobody dared to lend his or her ears to you
I could have protected you when everyone made you cry
I could have wiped your tears away when all you could do is break down
I could have …
So many things I could have done for you…

If only you had let me do them…

For you…

If only

Nothing really happened today except I studied for my long quiz on Statistics. I was really exhausted because of all the formulas I had to memorize. Thank God I memorized them all. I am not really good at math. Honestly, when I was in highschool, my grades in that subject are just average. I just wish I survive this subject...

I am actually planning to write another story. There is one that I haven't even finished. I have finished the first arc and I was lazy to continue it. It was long and it's not yet done.

The new story is just a little too...mature. Yes. I maybe underage but something in that story needed those themes. If not, then the story won't turn out to be realistic. And I want to make it really beautiful.

Good luck to me. Tomorrow means back to school.

Thank god it's friday!

Fri, 05 May 2006 13:01:43 GMT

I have been very busy the whole week. And to tell the honest truth, I am so tired. I almost gave up last night while reading my history book. Midterm. The coverage of our midterm at History 101 was from the 3rd page of the book to the 103rd. It's so annoying! I hate it! I was so tired of reading and I haven't even reached the half of the book. Terrible! I slept at around 3 o'clock in the morning, trying so hard to finish the whole thing. Unfortunately, I failed. I just wish I did well in my exam this afternoon. Because if not...I am dead.

Well then, I saw two of the most important people in my life. Seeing them makes me feel happy. I was so lonely yesterday because of some inevitable things. Well, the sadness I felt yesterday was changed by these two people. They make me feel that I am not alone. One with the letter "T" and another with the letter "D".

Yesterday? Something happened yesterday. It was something similar to what happened to me when I was just in first year highschool. It was an incident wherein my classmate was having a birthday party and the whole class was invited...excluding me. I felt left out. Really left out. I was always wondering why people are so mean to me. Am I really that bad? Is it really hard to like me? Or...it's just that I don't really belong?

That was one of my worst memories. And yesterday, it happened again. My heart felt really painful. It ached like it never ached before. When my father asked why I looked like I was about to cry, I really burst into tears. And I can't even say the reason to him.

Was it silly? To me, it is really bad. I know others would think it is to shallow to feel that way. But I feel that way.

There are times that I cursed all those people who made me feel this way. I told to myself that they would feel the same way that I do right now. I said that they would shed the same amount of tears I have. They would feel the same amount of pain that I felt.

But then, it would be selfish. It's not their fault if they don't like me right? But it made me really sad.

I just wish that it would all go away...

Changing the topic...

Ne, Yuki! I hope it would be okay if you would draw a little something for me. It would be connected to my new story. A little piece for my imagination so I could continue with the story. I would find time telling you how my story goes. Maybe if we see each other again.

However, I feel shy...Is it really okay?

Hate this day

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 11:22:15 GMT

This was originally not an update because this was where I posted my answers for the case presentation in my Health Ethics. Since my classmate, Michiko, saw my answers already, I decided to make this an update.

This day, I am actually quite frustrated. My computer isn't working properly and I needed to send an e-mail to that classmate of mine. Err...I just wish that I could have a new computer.

Well, this day is just like an ordinary day. But it's sunday and the next day is a holiday, so I can sleep late at night.

I can't write the next chapter for my NejiSaku fic...I am terribly busy...

I just wish this summer class would end.

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 11:17:24 GMT

My computer sucks! Hate it!

Sat, 22 Apr 2006 17:54:30 GMT

Yipee! I was able to update already! I am so happy! Period.

No, actually I won't be able to update for a long time because of my freaking summer classes. Grrr...hate it. It's summer, I am supposed to be resting in my lovely home, eating all day and night, sleeping as long as I would want to...but here I am going to school from 12 noon to 6:00 P.M. The heck with the schedule. I don't even have a break. Hate it. Going to school with the same subjects everyday. Life sucks. Hate it.

But then, there's something bothering me since last friday. I am beginning to feel a bit confused lately. As much as I want to get over that topic. I just can't. I try ver much to forget about it, the thing bothering be since last semester. Now that the person is not in the same block with me. I still can't help it. I still feel quite confused. Now that my very, very close friend comes into picture...again.

What to do...I should just play safe and shrug off the crazy confusion in my head. I must be dreaming. I am such an idiot. Am I?

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 14:25:52 GMT

Yipee! I just updated my fic The Shattered Pieces. Can you believe that? I think that it's not good, though. But I needed to write it since it's a part of the story. I decided that it should be a SasuSaku fic...No just joking. NejiSaku would always be the best! Hihihihi!!! I like it better than any other pairings. Sakura is exclusively for Neji and Neji is also exclusively for Sakura! Wahaha...my little dream world.

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 14:36:03 GMT

I have survived the "HELL WEEK"s! My three oral defenses are all done and I was able to do good with all of them. Whoot! Yipee! Am so happy! Am so happy! The only thing I'm going to focus on to is my final exams. It would be the whole week next week. Too bad, I am not going to be able to read fan fictions for the whole week, next week. But then, I think it would be worth it, right?

However, my summer vacation would only last for a week since I have to attend 9-unit summer classes. I hate it but I have to do it, anyway. I'll just get it over with and...voila! The result is oustanding!

I'll try doing my best...

No more NejiSaku, ItaSaku, KakaSaku, SaiSaku....

Sat, 04 Mar 2006 06:15:13 GMT

I feel much better now. Maybe. It's weekend yet I can't take a rest! I still need to revise my thesis paper. Yeah, a baby thesis paper. It doesn't need much revision yet I should put much effort in it if I want a high score, right?

I am starting with the 6th chapter of my fic "The Shattered Pieces." I am here at school so since I can't start with the research paper, I decided to start typing. Working, working!

I feel light today. Yet my mom and I are still not in good terms right now. How I wish we'll be happy again.

With that guy I was talking about. I am starting to get over the feeling. Though there are times that I still get very much irritated by everything he do and say. However, I still feel like...I want his presence even if I feel annoyed whenever I do see him.

Anyway, so much for that. Wasted everything for a person who wouldn't even do something that would make me happy.

slightly well

Thu, 02 Mar 2006 08:55:03 GMT

I feel a bit fine today. I am so tired but I can't go home just yet. Still have loads of school work to do here. My only means of salvation might just be reading fanfics. But not just any fanfic. Something like...NejiSaku, KakaSaku, ItaSaku, SaiSaku...yes. I really want to read those fics right now. What's more is that I am so tired of waiting for an update from my favorite authors. That's too bad. They are busy so I can't complain too much. But I can't help it. I just want to read fanfics so badly. Wait a minute...

So...I just updated for nothing. Just to spend some of my time in this lonely place called school. Yes...I am inside the campus and I just can't help whining and whining and whining. Well...

I just would like to thank that person who read my entry yesterday. You know who you are and I just want to tell you that the simple message you left made me okay...a bit. (Knowing that somebody cares)

Thank you...even if we do not know each other personally, you can say those words I waited for a long time to hear. And you said it like we have known each other for the longest time.

Thanks.

Well, this entry is just to make myself a little better from Monday's tragedy. Should I really say that it is a tragedy. But it was the worst day of my life. I just want to get out of that place for a while and live my life in a happy way. What am I saying?

I ain't a normal person anymore. And I feel so immature. But I don't feel like a child as well. Then what am I?

Anyway...to YOU who comforted me. I'll try to make even a drabble just for you. I'll make it this weekend. Just for you. Remember that. And I'll remember it as well.

What fanfic would you like? What pairing? Just tell me and I'll make it! Really!!!!

nothing

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 06:00:01 GMT

I don't feel like going home today. I am at school right now, updating this little place I know I can just be me. Well, I've been thinking abot this lately...about my problem. I decided to let go of the feeling before things become more complicated. I was back in class yesterday and before I went in the room, I told myself that I won't allow him to make me feel the way I felt those past few days. And when I did see him, I felt much better doing that way. There's a little feeling but then...what can I do?

Well, that's better for me. (And for him as well, if he knew this thing.)I guess he won't know...ever. Then I'll be able to live happily ever after...ne?

This is the only way I can move on without anybody knowing it. Even my friends.

Well this is a complicated thing...Once, that guy was my bestfriend's "love interest" and eventually found her own love one. (I think...)Then many more women are linked to him, though he never confirmed any of those girls. Then now, I think my other friend likes him too. And what should I do? Tell her I like him too. I don't want to be a bad person, worse than what I am today.

Last night, my mom and I had a fight. I was crying so hard and more painful words came out of her mouth. "You are smart bad you are bad inside..." something like that. Yes, maybe I am really evil. What hurt so bad is that I hear it from someone I really love. Does that make any sense? Was it really all my fault?

I was crying all night that my eyes are all sore. Ouch. But I was also thinking of what I really am? Can I change? Does my mom think of me that way? If she does then...maybe, others think I am worst.

Confused and frustrated. That's what I feel today. I just wish that this things would end. Now. School works are still coming and family issues just keep on hurting me. Then what should I do?

So tired...

I Don't Know...

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 02:40:03 GMT

I don't know what I truly feel right now. I mean...there's this person whom I really indifferent with. It's the same boy who I get annoyed with. But whenever I see him approaching my friend, I feel something different. Something new...I feel like a jelous girlfriend.

But when he approaches me, I just suddenly feel that my blood is boiling and my head is aching so much. Why is that?

Can someone tell me what is this feeling. I feel annoyed when I see him but I also feel different when he approach other girls.

I hate this feeling...so much...

i feel sick

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 09:42:42 GMT

I am kind of feeling sick today. What am I supposed to do? I feel like breaking down any minute now. Feel so tired...

I feel even weaker because there's nothing to read...

(sigh)What to do?! What to do?

Pervert!?

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 13:56:04 GMT

Now I am being accused of being a pervert? This isn't fair! I am being accused of being a Hentai, which I am not! Who is accusing me? None other than...the same moron who keeps on bugging me.

Another topic...

Well, there's this guy whom I really like before. But now that I don't like him anymore, he's the one who approach me and start a conversation. Ironic?

I really don't care right now. I have lots of things to think about. School, my studies. Good luck to me.

How's that?

I want to read more ItaSaku, NejiSaku, KakaSaku, ShikaSaku, and GaaSaku. I have almost read all the good fics on these pairings. Where can I read more?

i am the 289th

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 07:01:21 GMT

Certificate of Marriage
This is to certify that
Itachi Uchiha & panikku
were married on
February 05, 2006
Marry Your Favorite Character

I am the 289th wife of Uchiha Itachi! Do you mind?

Hooked...

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 08:42:17 GMT

Ah! I am so hooked to this korean drama, Jewel in the Palace. Weird? It's a very wonderful T.V. drama. Why not try watching it,ne?

Another bad day

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 13:15:00 GMT

This day is one of the worst day of my life. School works, annoying people, and a t.v. drama-addicted family. Those freaks! Hate them...

I feel so bad...I speak and speak and no one would listen. How am I supposed to feel? They are so bad...

But then...What can I do? Curse them forever? Nah...there's something worst than that...

Anyway...

Actually...it is Baby Panikku

Panikku-japanese translation of PANIC

Ehehehe...

Uhuhuhu...

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 09:38:51 GMT

It's kinda raining right now. The dark sky just makes it gloomier. Uhuhuhuhu...And still, I can't write a new chapter for my NEJISAKU story.

What am I supposed to do?

I just updated this journal for nothing...

Why is everyone so annoying?

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 11:00:57 GMT

Everyone's so annoying and so annoying and so so annoying!

Hope this day just end.

I hate it!!!!! Hate it! Hate everyone!

Well, anyway,can't let them get into me.

And I still can't write my new chapter for "The Shattered Pieces"

for real

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 13:54:36 GMT

my midterm exams are now over! it feels so good right now! Well, what can I say? Oh yeah, even if my exams were over, I still have things to work on. I have to finish the literary criticism on a certain book, which is a requirement in my SOCIO class!

Freaking hell!

But then, I still need to try on updating my NEJISAKU fic....